absurdity

GAHHH.
today has been pretty....yeah.
first thing in the morning,
and i had problem controlling my tounge.
vularities all come out.

and first time i said it too.
how can i let her get on my nerves so much that i start saying this kind of things?
i cant believe this.
for some people, this may be normal.
but to me, i think i have changed a lot.
this week especially.

wads happening to me?

and then,
when i try my best, really best
to make a particular person happy,
to try not to start arguements,
to give in to her/him,
he/she had to tell people all sorts of nonsense - about me.

okay.
i admit.
im not perfect.
i know my flaws perfectly well.
and im trying really hard to change
if you'd just give me a chance.



and to that other person this morning.

sorry.
even though i noe you'll not be reading this


_________________________________________________

okay.
and i bought a dress just now.
for saturday.

geesh i thought it looked okay
untill i actually tried it on.

it was not what i expected.
the back was soooooo low cut!

so im gonna change the dress.
actually wan to exchange tmr wif Huixin.
but Dad said can go after dinner.

sigh.
this is getting more complicated.






midyears are nearing.
repeat after me:
i must not slack i must not slack i must not slack

-----
mugmugmug





korkor Ben/auntie Ben :D :
thanks for your encouragement;
i know i can count on you.
((: