absurdity

band prac today!
jammed like crazy!
chaochao uber fun.

i felt inferior again, after hearing their voices.
its like. whoa, they really can sing.
and i was like screaming. literally SCREAMING.
went over to Persis's side after dying beside the singers..
guess she encouraged me. in a high-and-crazy sorta way. haha(:
and i can play SYNTH! YAY! haha a bit only.
THANKS PERSIS! (L)(L)(L)!

i think God prompted me on a song a few days ago?
haha only told Joy and Pipi.
i think He is trying to speak to me through that song?
yeaps.

but, today the whole freaking-out-cause-the-auditions-are-nearing thing
started a little. again.
the others were all so good.

yeaps, but whatever it is,
whether i get in or not, may it be God's Will.

honestly,
i feel like im not putting God first in my life.
what now?