absurdity

i know that He is Knocking, but i cant seem to find the handle on my side either.

did i disobey God? had He just called me to stop? to take a break?

it is true that i might have been serving for the wrong reasons.

im just so tired now. my walk with God has'nt been entirely fruitful.

people keep telling me that im just in a dry season,

yet it has been this way from the start.

how can it be?

and i cant serve if my side isnt right.

how can i tell people to get up and be joyful and praise God when im not?

sure, i can encourage people.

but right now i am even doubting myself.

how can i encourage others if they know that i am probably worse off?

(in terms of walking with God, discipline to do qt etc.)

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my brain is gonna burst any moment now.

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I say on Sunday how much I want revival

But then by Monday, I can’t even find my Bible

Where’s the power

The power of the cross in my life

I’m sick of playing the game of religion

I’m tired of losing my reason for living

Where’s the power

The power of the cross in my life

I’m not content just to walk through my life

Giving into the lies

Walking in compromises now

We cry out as a generation that was lost

But now is found in the power of the cross

We believe in You

We believe in the power of Your Word and its truth

We believe in You

So we lay down our cause

That our cross might be found in You

I’m not satisfied doing it my own way

I’m not satisfied to do church and walk away

I’m not satisfied, there’s no love in my life but You

I’m not satisfied living in yesterday’s hour

I’m not satisfied to have the form, but not the power

I’m not satisfied, Oh Lord I am crucified in You